Two for One

Tucker

Lion Rampant
#1
A person's thousandth post should mean something. Everything should mean something. Some things mean everything.


Happy Birthmas, Emma Jade. These were written for you.



I Swear

I am not writing
these words late at night
'cause I sleep like a baby
and everything's sweetness and light

I'm not hearing
that heartbreaking song
where the guy says, "Oh darling, I'm strong"
and I'll get along

The memory's painless
when I think of your face
which is not all that special
your radiant grace - commonplace

Do I fear for your safety?
You know that I don't!
Will the loneliness drown me?
I'm sure that it won't...

I have seventeen lovers
two more in Japan
so I hardly remember your name -
Charlie Ann?

No checking my email
every hour on the hour
and the lack of your soft words
gives me infinite power

Oh, I'm something not human
my eyes are not blue
they're not misting, they're sweating
and for sure I'm not thinking of you

Nothing was my fault
my conscience is clear
I would not beg forgiveness
if you'd just reappear

I'm better for losing
and I don't need you back
my door isn't open
not the tiniest crack

Such a happy and timely goodbye
I will not, I will not cry
cross my sore heart, hope to die
and yes, I deny, I deny
this poem's a wonderful lie



Sleep with Me

I don't see redemption in suffering
I don't see redemption at all
And my arms weigh a ton
From supporting the sun
And I can't help but let the night fall

But you'll see, if you give it some pondering
We're two of the fortunate few
Who have danced on the stars
And been smothered in scars
And there's no other story so raw and so true

So, goodnight now
No goodbyes
In the gathering dusk you'll hear one of my lullabies
The dark may be long
But we still have this song
And I'll sing it 'til every tear dries
Time to lie down
Close our eyes
Acknowledge the black but refuse it to paralyze
Then tomorrow we'll stand
And uniting our hands
We can lift the sun back to the skies

For now I'll accept that we're faltering
I'm tired, discouraged and sore
And I know you are, too
But I'm thinking of you
And a life that could be so much more

So I hope you'll assert your autonomy
Seize the control of your time
I just know once you've freed yourself
You might concede yourself
Wanting that lonely heart beating with mine

So, goodnight now
No goodbyes
In the gathering dusk you'll hear one of my lullabies
The dark may be long
But we still have this song
And I'll sing it 'til every tear dries
Time to lie down
Close our eyes
Acknowledge the black but refuse it to paralyze
A new day can come
If we will it as one
So, goodnight now, goodnight, no goodbyes