The Battle of Convinced Assumption Before I begin, I want you all to know that I realize some of this is in dire need of editing, however, I have this obsession with drafts, and also, no one has found enough merit in my work to agree to help edit it for me. What I am suggesting is mind-boggling to some but as they say, “truth is scarier than fiction”. Below I have provided some key points that may help substantiate some of my claims. In my writing I tried to use my own words to explain my experience. As you are reading this, and my previous writings which you most likely disregarded as the product of illness, eliminate any prejudice that you may have. It took four hours to find any relevant information on this particular topic. Two hours into my research one of the summaries to one of the links within the search results said, “You have to keep digging”. The internet is like a gold mine, enlightenment and justice for the mind does not come easy. To be able to strike gold, or discover truth one must have the will power to withstand tedious research, which weakens ones state of consciousness. Believe it or not, during these times people are highly susceptible to be subjected by psychological weaponry aimed at getting inside of the brain, and/or damaging memory and/or cognitive ability. Basically I am referring to illicit experimentation that is used to assist studies and research in addition to organizations which try to debilitate curious citizens. Frequently, when one finds proof on the internet of something controversial, something not revealed in mainstream media, the web site will vanish soon after it is discovered, increasing distress to the formerly contented individual. Two hours after I received the message stated above, I finally discovered a website with both relevancy and credibility. The small increments of information I provided below are outdated, and technology has advanced monumentally. As a result of the governments adamancy to cover up security capabilities, despite ones need to be security conscious, updated information on this is extremely elusive. I could not find the same sight I had previously found, which went more in depth and seemed to have more credibility; however, using some of the key words I gained from previous research, I was able to pull up some information which seemed to say some of the same things. Just to reiterate, secretive information is extremely difficult to find on the Internet, especially for victims of mind control who have a heightened eagerness to validate their suspicions. Mind control victims are usually targeted individuals accused of dissenting from the majority. The externals of these individuals are exclusively controlled, creating an artificial reality for the victim that often leads to mental illness. As many realize, much of the internet is propaganda and disinformation. Even trusted news sights are extremely limited, and still partially propaganda. Search results are often flooded with one sided views, or ridiculous disinformation and subliminal messages diffused by artificial intelligence aimed at brainwashing and inciting paranoia in independent researchers. The reason no ones knows about this is because the government actively covers up proof in fear of the reaction of the public. Many fear that if our government is exposed, the entire population may be driven to cynicism, and an all out, catastrophic civil war or devolution will supervene. Nevertheless, truth is a remedy, and there are means, explained in my former blogs, which can prevent the masses from pursuing a hostile and implacable rebellion. Therefore, the ominous oligarchy in charge of the New World Order must be exposed once and for all and not merely in BLOGS, discredited threads and elusive websites, but on the television, in the newspapers, and everywhere. “NSA DOMINT has the ability to assassinate US citizens covertly or run covert psychological control operations to cause subjects to be diagnosed with ill mental health.” “The NSA obtains blanket coverage of information in the US by using advanced computers that use artificial intelligence to screen all communications, regardless of medium, for key words that should be brought to the attention of NSA agents/cryptologists.” “Without any contact with the subject, Remote Neural Monitoring can map out electrical activity from the visual cortex of a subject's brain and show images from the subject's brain on a video monitor. NSA operatives see what the surveillance subject's eyes are seeing.” “NSA's RNM equipment remotely reads the evoked potentials (EEGs) of the human brain for tracking individuals, and can send messages through the nervous systems to affect their performance.” I am going to start at the beginning of these groundbreaking experiences and attempt to explain myself as thoroughly and coherently as possible. Many experiences I have forgotten, so I will do best to include and elaborate upon all that I can retain. It all started with ESPN poker club. This is an internet poker client. Over the course of three years my brother spent ample hours a day playing poker on this corrupt poker client. During this time, he noticed how impersonal and predictable many of the members on this site were. He picked up on trends such as if you go all in; someone is bound to call, decreasing the percentage of winning for those who go all in on good hands. At first I didn’t believe him, but I too began playing on the poker client and noticed some of the same things he had mentioned to me. There were other patterns and truths about this site that aroused suspicion as well. One of which is the fact that there is always a significant number of people on at one time. The conclusion he came to was that the moderators, or makers of this site used bots to fill rooms and the entire site was mainly a computer generated bot-site. He got one of the moderators, with the alias Horatio Caine, to admit this. When he posted on the forums his posts were immediately dismissed and erased. At one point, he had a significant amount of fake money stolen from his account. Upon researching the site my brother discovered two things. One of which was the fact that this site was sponsored by open source technology, www.openssL.com. This cryptology website educated me on some of the evil tactics that occur on the internet, such as man-in-the-middle attacks, and other means to isolate possible threats to certain groups’ secrecy and legitimacy, without becoming too obvious. He attentively researched this site, and those of which branched off of this site. I sat buy him during his research noticing some of the astounding and shockingly controversial sites he had discovered. As a result of the state my brother was in, he brushed over many sites, even terrorist or so called anti terrorist websites in search of a larger truth, and further validation. Upon his research, we discovered weather control sites, the monopoly of Disney, the prominence of artificial intelligence (names such as Nick Jennings comes to mind) and other things as well. None of these websites are currently available. He also tracked one of the moderators to a scamming website and “trolled” the site. The moderators or scam-artists drove him nearly insane revealing parts of his past, such as nicknames, and also making threats to his life and talking about his car and other things that intensified his paranoia. He got so paranoid and fearful that he started running around the neighborhood frantically. Eventually he got arrested after jumping through a window in fear of his life. This led to him being confined at St. Johns hospital, and eventually resulted in him being institutionalized at a hospital in Baltimore city. Stimulants, and sleep deprivation contributed to this incident but it was not unprovoked. After realizing all of this, I made some remarks to those involved, the scam-artist, in defense of my brother, and began researching as well. Furthermore, I affirmed the corruption of ESPN poker club, after exposing a bot and immediately being disconnected from the server. My research led to other discoveries such as the development of humanoids, future intentions in the field of robotics and human-bot interactions, which may have been one of the studies allotted to the poker client. I also realized that Chris Moneymaker was initially a publicity stunt, who got famous from ESPN poker club, despite his current claim that he qualified for the WSOP during a poker tournament at www.pokerstars.net. I consolidated all of this knowledge in an article which got published in the Essex campus newspaper, earning me the title “The Grand Conspiracist”. I attributed all of the research to my brother. Eventually, my laptop was hacked. Luckily, I was able to retrieve documents on my hard drive. These shocking experiences continued once my brother was finally released from the hospital. This time is very hazy for me, so I will not be able to write about this experience in chronological order, or tie it together in a vivid story, as there was just so many things going on, and my memory of it is rather cluttered. It strains me even to try and recollect all of the things. Many of them are worth noting, and I have notes on them somewhere in a folder, however, I’m not very organized and I don’t know the whereabouts of this folder. Undoubtedly, the medication I was forced to take has had a profound effect on my memory and ability to thoroughly explain this story, however, we will get to that later. Now I will talk about something that has been absorbed into my memory for quite sometime now. What I am referring to is my spiritual epiphany. This is unlike any other epiphany I have heard. Although, it is difficult to decipher between divine intervention, and the rather sinister forces of BIGBROTHER, I believe this was clearly the work of God. I’m unaware of when this epiphany occurred, but I know for a fact that it was not a delusion caused by stimulants, a supposed illness, or an excess of dopamine. This was completely real. It all started when I started reading the Bible. Normally when I would look at the Bible I would approach it rather timidly, uncertain of its sacrosanct value. Its not that I didn’t believe in Jesus or God, I was merely just not prepared for the lessons that it delivers. Don’t get me wrong though, there were times in my adolescence when I felt as if parts of the Bible were fabricated and manipulated and the stories were mainly about the message. I still believe the Bible is mostly about the message, but I also understand that this inexplicably enchanted work has great historical credibility as well, not to mention it is Holy, hence the name. I began reading the first book in the New Testament. I was completely engrossed by it. For the first time in my life I understood Jesus’ vague messages, and as a result I reached a moment of clarity. After reading this it was as if I had aged ten years in one night. I became infatuated with Jesus’ messages, and I felt as though Jesus had been speaking directly to me through scripture at certain times. I believe I received esoteric messages from Jesus Himself. I can’t remember all that was said, nor can I find the same or new messages within the Bible. Frequently I search for the same messages almost in vain and a few times after the epiphany I received other messages, but the last I received, I recall Him saying that was all that I could bear at the moment. Nevertheless, the first time I received the messages I got the impression I was being directed on a mission, a test of will or I was involved in a prophesy that in the end would result in my death. What I was initially sent to do was go to the top of a hill near my house, and yell, “Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord”. Not only had He directed me through scripture, He also had directed me by guiding me on various paths, communicating with me within my mind. I didn’t necessarily hear voices, it was more my conscience guiding me in the right path. Once I completed this mission, I began my trip back. On the way back, I saw a sign that said, “There are three ways in,” or something along those lines, which basically meant that people can enter the Kingdom of Heaven through the Father, the Son, or the Holy Spirit. I never felt so good in my life. No accomplishment surpasses this fairly easy mission. Following this experience, I returned to the Bible, receiving messages confirming my success. The messages I received are numerous. Some I do recall, some I forgot and some I don’t feel comfortable telling others, for it was more personal and should be kept in discretion. The visions I had Jesus specifically told me not to express until He comes. Nevertheless, I do remember one thing. The Bible had told me that first the Holy Spirit would come to me, and then a helper would come and prepare the way for me. I also recall messages such as “many are called, but few are chosen”. I felt as though I had been chosen. I didn’t feel better than anyone because of this. I merely felt as though because I was lost, he chose me, so I would not be left behind. Subsequently, in daytime, I saw a condensed cloud of energy circling around my mom’s porch. It was not a delusion and people who say that it is both offend and frustrate me. I watched this spiritual-like entity with virtues in mind such as patience. I went outside and the spiritual-like entity began circling me. Finally, after voiding out all negativity, it seemed as if it entered me, causing me to feel very euphoric. Around this time span, I experienced other things as well. For example, I had been looking into the sliding glass door and the reflection I saw was me as an old man. In a panic, I ran inside to look in the mirror. I was normal. This may mean that I have matured spiritually and now have a responsibility to uphold a different moral standard as to set an example to others, or it may imply something else. I received other messages telling me to tell others of the miracles God has bestowed upon me, which I did excitingly. Unfortunately, as a result, people thought I needed help and no one believed anything I was saying. My expectations for others were unrealistic and rather naïve. I felt hypocritical because I was trying to exhort others to follow the light, despite slipping back into the dark. It was if I was “blinding by the light”. Regardless, following this epiphany my taste in music changed, and I felt emotions for the first time in years. Either that day, or the next I experienced an ethereal phenomenon. It was night time, and I walked outside the basement door to get some air. I was trying to take in all that had been happening to me as best that I could. After a short period staring off into the dark I heard footsteps that sounded very threatening. In fear, I ran back inside as quickly as possible and closed and locked the door. I had never been this scared in my life. I was literally petrified. In the day, I looked back where I had heard the footsteps and I was shocked at what I saw. In the grass, in the exact place where I had heard the footsteps, there were darkened imprints. I showed these imprints to both my mom, who now claims she never saw them or merely just doesn’t remember, and also my step brother, who is schizophrenic, and probably doesn’t remember either. Nevertheless, both had seen them. I don’t think either of them fully grasped this sight, but I did. I believe it was an attack on my soul. Following these life changing events, my uncle came to stay for a little while. In the Bible I remember it saying that a helper would come, and I believe he may have been the helper. Without me even telling him about the experiences, he turned me on to religion. I went to church with him a couple of times and even to a spiritual retreat. Prior to the epiphany, I was bored with church, but something had changed within me. During church, and at the retreat, the psalms reached my soul and they would make me tear up, even when trying to hold it back. Also related to religion, I came to various conclusions based on assumptions which do not deserve to be disregarded. I brought to surface the possibility of Barack Obama being the antichrist after listening to one of his notoriously tumultuous speeches. As many realize, Hilary is likely to become president. The reason I fear this is because that would mean Barack Obama would most likely be vice president. I do not fear Hilary alone; it is the power Obama may have over Hilary that concerns me. Obama resembles the antichrist in many ways and now if you search “Obama” and “antichrist” on the internet you find over one hundred thousand results. However, I can’t deny that I like him, for he is a likable guy (for some reason word underlines “he is,” and the correction it provides is “he is not”) nor do I advocate political murder or anything of the sort. I would rather people guide him, than anything else. But if predestination is real, what will be, will be, and all I can do is do all that is in my power to prevent disaster. I published an article for my campus newspaper on why I fear his power, titling the article, “American fear of political polarization,” which was for the most part a critique on one of his speeches. Adding to my suspicion, I saw television coverage of Barack Obama and Hilary Clinton reading rather pessimistic excerpts out of the Bible, in a smoke filled room, similar to the smoke I see whenever I look for it. No one knows about this, or has talked about it, even though, to me, it seems news-worthy. Another weird television program I saw was “Africa’s Maryland”. This show included a preacher talking about hope in Kingsville. There is also a Kingsville in Africa. This confused me very much so. I also saw a religious program of a guy talking about religion and it seemed as though he was speaking to me. He was talking about how many people are not real; they are merely mirages, or puppets. The people around him seemed demonic, and he appeared fearful. The people around him were promoting that people should fast, but they did not say people should fast, they said you should fast. It seemed like they wanted to exploit my vulnerability knowing that I am not yet prepared for such an immense test of my will. Before the program ending the “good” guy waved his hands diagonally, mouthing “no”. I realize none of this will help my case, but it is all real and very important. It should not be disregarded or denounced as delusion, which I expect all of you will do. I was advised by my brother to not speak of religion, but I feel compelled to do so, for it is important to me. Unfortunately, even though I witness miraculous events, my behavior has not changed too much. I became very isolated and my struggle only escalated after this epiphany. During social events I feel very alienated, which exhausts me. The complexities of daily life and gossip leaves me feeling hopeless and behind in the world. My knowledge is simple. I understand it perfectly well. However, I rarely find those like me, so I find myself on the outside, self-absorbed, and pressed to change the world around me. My simplicity comes off as irrational and/or inferior to many I communicate with. From my understanding, the resolution of complexities is found in simplicity. For example, I believe, virtue will show through the simplicity of the law. People lack values because law and government do not present them. Also, in stead of complicating issues of war with concepts and theories, we should simplify it down to Love and hate. Hate empowers Love; therefore, it should be used to influence societies and resolve disputes. I also believe complex economic theories such as supply, demand, inflation, and others are mere illusions that empower the dollar, and stifle plans to abolish poverty, alleviate enslaving work schedules and pay those too incompetent for work. After we defeat the power of the dollar, or in other words, “the big apple,” many great things will follow. Education will be reformed. All individuals will receive the attention needed, and the learning system most suitable to his/her needs. In regards to health care, all will receive equal benefits, rejecting no citizen on the basis of financial insufficiency. Also, once we complete all these things I have suggested, government will no longer be devised to control citizens; the government will become a system of leadership, resulting in better judgment globally. The Revolution begins in America and must be revived from within America. Jesus once said to me, “the sickness will not last until death”. What I have explained, in the utmost simplicity, is the cure. However, Jesus also said, “no prophet will be accepted in his own country”. I neglect the truth to this statement despite the logic that stifles such ambitions. I’ve called myself the prince, but I’m modest as a laborer, for that is what I am. To reiterate a statement from my former Blogs, “temporary servility implies eternal freedom”. In this world we all win, it’s just a matter of time, leading up to the end of time. I do not write of destruction of earth, rather, heaven on earth is what I am alluding to. I am not more worthy than Hitler for as the saying goes, we are one. Love will prevail. Life is not a game. A game ends. Tests, however, are completed. Before I move on, I want you all to know that religion did not cause any of my problems, even if it made people around me question my sanity. Without religion, I would not have been able to tolerate the many stresses I was forced to face. Religion is my company when I’m alone. It is my guard against complete dementia caused by isolation. Now, I will return to the problem at hand, technological capabilities, explaining my interaction with them and how they have affected my life to the best of my ability. This is the haziest of all experiences, and to explain everything would be impossible. Some of this even I disregard for it is too unbelievable to accept. During this time, and even present day, my brother and I often get the sense that we are being watched. I realize this discredits me, and that is what makes government espionage so difficult to remedy. The radio often portrays current moods or sentiments. Some discount this as coincidence, but some of it so stunningly resembles my current emotion that I can’t help but question the irony. This artificial irony is prevalent in technology. Just yesterday, on myspace, a couple advertisements I saw included a parody on both zombies (medicated bi-polar patients) and feeding Nicole (anorexia) which represents this hospital almost too eerily. Whether this is the evolution of artificial intelligence, or a technological savvy human playing tricks on peoples’ minds is impossible for me to answer.