I'm hurting Mentally; Depression & Anger. I'm starting to fear that I'm becoming Bipolar like my father was. I've lost allot of weight. And, my strength is decreasing dramatically. Don't want to alarm my parents. Getting up at 7:00AM isn't really helping either. Because of the stress I'm making myself Ill. I've even had thoughts are killing other people. Because, I want to see what it feels like. I really need some help... Any suggestions?