When I was a child I told my mum to get me baptised. I was 5 years old and I told her i didn't want to go to hell for not believing. Between the ages of 5 and 13 I was a strong christian follower. I attended church every sunday was an active member for the community projects and looked after the younger children in youth group on Friday night. I was devoted because no matter what I knew God would guide and save me. When my dad left I knew it was a test of faith and so I stayed strong and looked after my mum and brother, when our house had a terrible fire I stayed strong and praised god for us all being safe. Then in 2 years our family faced more trauma than you could imagine. We went through trial after trial and all of a sudden my faith had ebbed away. I no longer enjoyed being at church, I saw all the flaws and inconsistancies of the Bible. Then my faith was truly demolished when 9/11 happened. I can not and WILL not accept that there is a saviour. I will not believe that anyone who cares for us as His children could watch as innocent good people suffer. Not just suffer but face the worst of humanity and one of the most horrifying things was hearing people justify these horrific acts as "Gods Plan" Screw his plan. I'm not ranting to be converted but I'm intrigued as to whether anyone else started out believing and is now an atheist or agnostic?