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A tearful, heartfelt Hello

Elana

New Member
V.I.P. Lifetime
Hello GF, after reading so many heartfelt posts by so many amazing people about a wonderful person who we all will miss. I had to say for all to see here that I have cried so many tears reading the posts about Katrina. Tears of missing her, but mostly tears of the loss you have felt and understanding how important she truly was to you. She touched so many lives in so many ways, she may never know just how much, but we, the lucky few to know her will never forget her.

I am honored and proud to come here and say Katrina was my friend, and I am proud of her for her life, and even in death. She has changed or improved so many lives for the better it seems. Some of the greatest leaders failed to do what it seems Katrina was able to, she was truly a great person and capable of great things.

Some of you have shared with me pages of this from GF, and I am forever grateful for this. It means a lot to me personally to see she was loved by so many, she deserved this in her life, and now, to be remembered this way forever in our hearts.
 

CaptainObvious

Embrace the Suck
V.I.P.
Thank you so much for being here. It's true Katrina meant so much to a lot of us and we all miss her deeply.

I really hope you stick around. She spoke very highly of you to me and I appreciate all that you did for her.
 

Kazmarov

For a Free Scotland
Hello, I am glad you are here and glad that you appreciated our memorials and memories of Katrina.
 

Millz

Better Call Saul
Staff member
V.I.P.
Hey Elana,

It is very cool that you stopped by to say hello and that you were able to read all the notes, messeges and blogs about Katrina. I hope you're doing okay.
 

Jeanie

still nobody's bitch
V.I.P.
Hi Elana, thank you for being here, and thank you for all you did for Katrina.
 

shelgarr

Registered Member
Hi Elana. Yes, please stay. Can you take a few moments and explain your relationship with Katrina? What is your history with her?
 

SmilinSilhouette

Registered Member
Hi Elana! I'm so glad you joined and I hope you will stay!
 

Elana

New Member
V.I.P. Lifetime
I won't lie, or make excuses for how her and I came to be friends, she deserves better than that.

I met Katrina about mid March, I was asked to share with her what it meant to be an escort and show her it could improve her life. I never lied to her, she was in a lot of trouble and desperate to earn money. She told me how she was about to lose everything, her flat and what little she owned. She said what was most important to her was her education.

I opened the door to escorting for her, I showed her it wasn't exactly how she envisioned it. I told her without it, I would not have my degree, my car, my home... The truth is she didn't need me to tell her anything, to make it look more glamorous than it really is, her choice was made the moment we met, she had no choice really. I realize that now. I saw a lot of myself in Katrina, she had drive, ambitions and dreams and she was at the end of a rope with no where to go, no one to help. My reasons for becoming an escort were much like hers, only I think she was a bit worse off than I was.

I think it took me maybe 2 minutes to see how wonderful of a person she was. I took it upon myself to make sure she was safe, did things the right way to insure it, and I wanted her to not feel alone anymore. I treated her like my sister, and she looked up to me, and I failed her.

The more I grew to know her, the more I loved her, and the more cared about her. But I didn't do enough to keep her safe. I knew where she lived was a terrible place, I did offer for her to stay with me, but she refused, saying her new flat would be ready to move to in a few weeks and I didn't insist... That is the toughest part of this for me. She needed help, badly, even though she was now making decent money, money couldn't save her. She needed a friend, not a business consultant. She needed to get away from the dangers she was in, not have added risks. I failed her and I am truly sorry.

She has changed my life. The moment I heard what happened, everything came crashing down around me. Life isn't about a car or a home or even money, it's about helping others the way they should be helped, the way they deserved to be helped. I quit escorting, cancelled all appointments, took down all adds and I will never again advocate for it again. Instead, I have taken a job as a social worker consoler, I am going to use this roll and my degree to get to a point where I can change things here. I want to help girls like Katrina have a fair chance at life, even when life doesn't seem fair. I want to be able to give better and more respectable options to girls like Katrina. I am going to do this because of Katrina.
 

Jeanie

still nobody's bitch
V.I.P.
You didn't fail her, Elana. You helped her to feel good about herself for the first time in her life. I'm so grateful to you for that. You did everything you could for her, please don't be so hard on yourself about this. If you are honest with yourself, you will know that even if you insisted, it wouldn't have made any difference. She was very proud. Please stop blaming yourself. She would want you to look forward instead of dwelling on the past and what you might have done differently.
 

Babe_Ruth

Sultan of Swat
Staff member
V.I.P.
Elana, please do not blame yourself for her death, it's those monsters who did this, not you. You've been a great friend to Katrina, and we can all see that in your words and tears. You helped Katrina in more ways then none.

I would like to personally welcome you to GF. Katrina meant a lot to us, and we miss her very much. She was kind, sweet, always had a smile on her face no matter how bad things looked, she never complained, I admire her dearly and cannot stop thinking about her.

I know you're going through rough times right now, we all are, but you will get through this. You seem like a very strong person. Stay strong my friend.

Hopefully you do decide to stick around.
 
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