The Prophesy is Real
(they continue to edit my work)
All that he said would happen to me has happened. Much of my future is uncertain, but inside I am certain of what fate will bring. Prior to writing this I was stressed, and weighed down. After I completed this, I was no longer anxious. It’s Sunday, and trust me, I am aware. Understand when you read my work who “they” are. Although I only believe in one side, I understand that there is another side. I am the object of their game. I've been accused of being enslaved by my egotism, however, that accusation is incomplete, for I am egotistically, altruistic. My message scares them, makes them cry, and brings them joy. I do not desire power over another human being. I don't want to control anyone, except myself. I do however want my message to be understood by all, and not caged in their exclusive world. I am not trying to be a usurper. The signs are boundless, but no one believes entirely. Inside they do, but something holds them back from releasing my message from its cage. Believe me when I say, I do not desire sacrifice, I desire mercy. If we all followed emotion, than we will be scattered. Parts of this was written earlier. I am ambivalent. Now I understand…
Who is else is taking the test? I wonder if I'm wrong, or If I have been tricked. Who is on my side? There are so many angels in disguise. I doubt that I can do this alone. Did they change their name? Should I carry the cross, or will I be forsaken in doing so? I was so happy yesterday when I knew the answer, but who wants this knowledge alone? Spiritual leaders have transient power. I don't mind if you live, but I can't bear to accept how they live. We can't just let them carry our planet. You should not content yourself under rulers who claim to represent your motive. I know it is said we should live and let die, but I'm not comfortable. I will remain in this child-like state knowing what you claim is maturity. When will people learn? Why can't you accept real wisdom, innocence and simplicity, the indestructible knowledge that comes from the heart. Some think I'm doomed, as if the son is consumed by the son but what does that even mean? If I were to do anything besides what I know, I would not be myself. I think and believe the philosophy of Jesus not because I have no personality and merely emulate the thoughts and ideas of others; it is because our mind is one. I in Him, Him in Me, and We are Us. There is one thing that you don't understand about me. When I read the parables of Jesus, not only did I find Jesus, I found myself.
I have come to a Revelation, which is essential for the entire world to hear. It has been said, but not yet affirmed, that bipolar is a gift and a curse. (For some reason I type cure instead of curse for the second time) People hear this, but only those with this condition understand its true meaning. In my mania stages I am close to God. I see spiritual smoke others can not perceive. It makes me cry even, the joy of knowing a power so unsurpassed. People or doctors specifically, are denouncing these experiences as delusions, when they are really epiphanies. Many patients don't understand this and become despondent as a result. There is a downside to this condition thought, which is debilitating deep waters, which means a heightened susceptibility to the ploys of Satan, causing patients inflicted to diffuse powerful hatred to those who disturb him/her. This is why doctors fear us, and is part of the reason why they push medication so aggressively. I am vital to our nation because I understand this, thus enabling me to evoke a reawakening in the masses. No words can corrupt my certainty. It is not over, nor is this the end of the innocence, or even the eradication of evil, rather this is the beginning of the end of sin, sickness, and time. "Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will Be Done, On Earth As It Is in Heaven” However, I must conform to the system, and earn credibility within the system, to change the system, so for the time being, I will consent to treatment.
Zachary Scott McBride